About me....

5/23/2005 9:38:00 PM

Okay... I don't have an easy time saying this and I don't even think I am going to end up posting it. I've tried to say things like this before then ended up getting a sick feeling in my stomach and and deciding against it. There is nothing I really want more than to have a friend/companion who I feel I can really really rely on. I've felt this way since probably before middle school. Don't take offense, anyone- I've had great friends! (Previously, I had catergorized the friends I had/have here. Now that I think about it, though, it's irrelevant. Just don't look for things to take personally, okay?) *sigh* Now that I think that I covered everyone... (I really don't want to offend anyone, so please let me know if I do)... the friend I've always wanted: Anyone who has known me for a few years knows about my mascot, Cactus Buddy. I created his character to be a stand in for the very person I am looking for. In my old comics I used to draw (I actually, on a random whim, drew a new one a couple of months ago), Cactus Buddy's and my conversations were dynamic and fun. They were spontaneous, yet they were classic and familiar. Constantly doing a combination of almost reading eachother's minds and throwing eachother off horribly. -I want to be part of a dynamic duo! This is probably the reason that at 18, I'm still a Digimon fan. I still think it would be great to have a companion of ANY form that won't leave my side no matter what. Whose personality compliments mine (and vice versa). I like the idea of going on adventures in new and different places, (and save the world while I'm at it!) but it would be more fun if I had the perfect traveling companion. I don't care who this person is at this point. Someone I could be in a relationship with? A friend? If you asked me in person what kind of friend I would like, what kind of person I would want to date, etc. I probably wouldn't say all of this. I'd probably just say "Someone awesome". Well, this is what I mean. Now to leave this window open for a while to see if I actually post this... Hmm... possibly a bit much to send out into cyberspace.... not much more than anyone else- but I always think that's a tad too much too. *deep breath* Ok, I'm posting it.